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A little more inspiration

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I just read a great blog post that reminded me of my own experience I will forever refer to as the “beer bottle throwing incident of 2014.

Has anyone ever made fun of you for working out in public? Read it.

Do you feel uncomfortable working out in public? Read it.

Are you someone that makes fun of others for trying to better themselves. Read it and grow up.

Here is the link: Dear Neighbor Who Is Running And Working Out Outside

It was hard for me to write about the asshole who thought it was appropriate to throw a beer bottle at me while working out. At first I didn’t want to tell anyone about it, let alone blog about it. In the long run I am SO glad I did. The response I got was incredibly overwhelmingly positive.

The post was shared dozens of times. People I barely know stopped me in the streets of my small town and motivated me to keep going and ignore the haters.

Here are some of the comments I got on my Facebook page alone after posting the blog (I got over 40 so I won’t be sharing them all):

“Love you, girl! While he was pointing one finger at you, three of his fingers were pointing back at him. Judging says nothing about the one being judged, but everything about the one doing the judging! You have the right attitude! Keep being you and speaking your truth and shining your beautiful light! xo”

“Ya know, you are totally right. What a jerk! Lynn, I really admire you for your attitude and for your work ethic. It’d be easy to let him get into your head but you didn’t. Good for you. Keep up the good work. One day at a time! Love you!”

you’re a hero. A friend of mine had a similar experience here in Boston last year while she was training for the webster triathalon, which she was doing to loose weight so she and her husband could get pregnant. She gave birth to her baby girl last week…I’m doing the triathalon in her honor this year because she just inspired me so much. You are so right about the dude that yelled at you, his life must be total shit, and will continue to be. My first instinct in these situations is to yell back “sorry about your tiny shrivled shrimp penis! good luck!”, ….feel free to use that whenever.Your a gorgeous person inside and out what a pathetic excuse of a man!!! Fantastic article!! And ps curvy is sexy so sod that pathetic excuse of a human being xxx

Thank you to all who encourage me, who keep me motivated, and are endlessly supportive. This is a long, hard journey, but I am going to make it, and I have people like you to thank for that.

I am quickly learning that for every discouraging asshat out there putting people down for working out, there are easily 100 cheering them on (whether they verbalize it or not).

To the “Neighbor Who Is Running And Working Out Outside” thanks for the motivation. Keep up the good work!

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Thanks for the motivation, asshole

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Saying I have had a hard time getting motivated to eat and workout lately would be the understatement of the year. After getting home from work, I just want to relax. Life’s stresses make me want to eat anything and everything in sight. I’m sure many of you relate.

Today I managed to pull together some motivation to ride my bike to the neighboring town. I have been riding a couple times a week — the longest ride so far being 16 miles. Today’s route wasn’t far — only about eight miles — but it required me to climb the steepest hill I have faced so far.  As I was very slowly climbing the worst part of the long hill, a Jeep came up behind me on the highway. A college-age man hung his head out the vehicle, yelled “fatass” and threw an empty beer bottle at me.

Classy.

The beer bottle shattered on the pavement next to me, sending sharp shards of glass bouncing off the road, hitting my legs and bike.

Physically I wasn’t hurt, but that action by a complete stranger hurt emotionally. It completely took the wind out of my sails for a couple minutes at a time I needed it the most.

Being overweight for most of my life, I have never been a fan of working out in public. I always worry about what other people are thinking about me. Every time someone looks at me, I just know that they are judging me, wondering why I even bother. Whether that is true or not, that is what I convinced myself was happening. Today’s incident pretty much confirmed that.

Eventually I worked my way to the top of that hill, and I was proud of myself. The downhill on the other side was amazing, relaxing, and gave me time to think about what just happened.

It took a lot, but I made it to the top, and it was worth it.
It took a lot, but I made it to the top, and it was worth it.

For a minute or so I was pissed about the jackwagon who thought it appropriate, or even fun, to try to discourage me from bettering myself. Once that passed, I actually felt bad for him. He must lead a pretty sad, pathetic life if actions like that are how he chooses to entertain himself.

I will never know if he was trying to discourage me, make me feel bad about myself, or just trying to get a laugh out of his buddy who was driving. Ultimately it doesn’t matter. What he managed to do was motivate me.

I had a revelation while on my ride. I don’t care anymore what people think or say about me while I am working out in public. If people have a problem with me working out in public, that is their problem, not mine. (For those of you who have telling me that for years, yes, it finally sunk in.)

Right now, I may be a “fatass,” but I don’t have to be. I can eat right, work out, and continue to improve physically and emotionally, and I am taking steps in that direction. I can change.

The bottle thrower is a pathetic person who clearly can’t or won’t control his actions. The highlight of his day is putting other people down. That is no way to live.

I can can change, but in my experience, people like him don’t. He is the one I pity.

So thanks for giving me the motivation I have been desperately searching for. If you’re reading this and you ever see me out, I owe you a beer.

Cooling down after my afternoon ride.
Cooling down after my afternoon ride.

 

 

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Laziness is not an option

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I’m feeling pretty proud of myself today.

My only pair of jeans that fit me drove me nuts falling down all day. As obnoxious as it was, it was a good obnoxious (is that possible?)

I made it to the gym after not going for a couple days thanks to a killer headache. Even though my last try at Week 2, Day 3 of Couch25K was a disaster (an asthma attack kept me from jogging half the running segments) I decided it was the day to move on to Week 3.

It wasn’t easy, but it wasn’t as hard as I prepared myself for. Today’s cycle consisted of a 5 minute warmup, 90 seconds of jogging, 90 seconds of walking, three minutes of jogging, 3 minutes of walking, 90 seconds of jogging, 90 seconds of walking, three minutes of jogging, 3 minutes of walking, and a 5 minute cool down for a total of 28 minutes

It might sound cheesy, but every time I thought I would have to stop running and walk, I would start thinking of some of the people injured in Monday’s bombings. Those people CAN’T run even if they wanted to. I can run, quitting would have been nothing but laziness.

I’m not going to allow laziness to be an option anymore.

I jogged very slowly, but I jogged. When I stepped off that treadmill, I was proud of what I had done, even though it was a very, very small accomplishment.

While at work today reading a story about Monday’s bombings I came across this quote in an Associated Press story:

“We find peace and perspective in our running,” said Rick Nealis, director of the Marine Corps Marathon. “A marathon runner goes out in all kinds of weather. People say, ‘You’re going in the rain? In the snow? In the morning? At night?’ And that’s right. It’s ‘me’ time. And you do feel safe, because you’re in control of your route and your destiny when you’re training.”

Clearly I am not a marathon runner, but this quote struck me. It made me realize I need to approach my workouts from a different perspective. Instead of viewing it as a chore, something I HAVE to do, I need to teach myself to look forward to it. That needs to be my “me time.” When I can think things over in my head — or not think at all if I don’t feel like it. I may not have control over other aspects of my life, but when I am walking, running, biking, or working out, I am in complete control.

It’s up to me to decide if I am going to take advantage of those moments, or waste them.

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Beautiful day for a walk

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It was a beautiful day today, so I decided to skip the gym and do my cardio outside. The city I live in is very walker/biker friendly so I went to check out one of the dozens of trails. download-2

I chose the Deible Loop, a nice flat trail on the southern side of the city. It is nicely paved and has a river running along side of the trail for much of the trip.

It was only 1.75 miles, so I planned on hitting the gym for some strength training afterward.

I was walking at a pretty quick pace, but the 1.75 mile loop seemed to be taking a really, really long time. Eventually I came across a 1.75 mile marker and new I had to have taken a wrong turn at some point and was on a different part of the trail. I eventually made my way back to the car in 50 (ish) minutes.

It was more than twice as far as I planned on walking, and it felt good! If my shoes hadn’t made my feet sore, I could have easily kept going — a nice change from barely being able to finish walking a 5K just over a month ago.

After going back and mapping my walk on the computer, it said I walked 3.46 miles. Not too shabby. I’ll definitely do that trail again (and probably try some others.) But next time I am going to take my dog, Duke.

Fun little markers telling you how far you've traveled — as long as you stay on the right trail.
Fun little markers telling you how far you’ve traveled — as long as you stay on the right trail.

When I got home from the walk, I immediately got to work getting ready for my upcoming move. I am really getting excited about it, but there is a LOT to do before moving day in the middle of May. I managed to thin my closet of two garbage bags of clothes that are too big for me (hooray!)

I dropped them off at the Community Partnership, a local non-profit resale shop that uses the funds to give back to the community. The walking trail today was one of their projects.

It feels great to be able to get rid of all those clothes, knowing they will never fit me again!

Goodbye bags of big clothes!
Goodbye bags of big clothes!
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1,100 calories burned before work. BOOM!

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I had about 20 magical minutes at the gym today where I was completely alone. It was wonderful. I took advantage of the alone time to practice my sweet dance moves while warming up on the treadmill.

Surprisingly, after hobbling around last night my knees feel fine today. I still stuck to the stationary bike after a 10 minute workout on the treadmill (No need to anger the workout gods) after being an idiot yesterday.

For a warmup I logged a measly .6 miles on the treadmill in 10 minutes, but followed it up with 11.37 miles on the bike in 50 minutes. That should help my goal of walking/running/biking more miles than I drive this week. So far I have logged 31 miles at the gym vs. 34 driving. I would be ahead of the game if I hadn’t been called into work twice after hours… grrrrrr.

Overall I burned about 1,100 calories before even going in to work today, not too shabby! My Anytime Health app was happy with me 🙂

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I don’t want to get my hopes up too much, but I have a feeling that if I keep going the way I have been this week, this could be a big number week for me. Fingers crossed!

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Weigh-in this morning revealed I lost .4 pounds since my last weigh-in. This week I lost 1.8 pounds for a grand total of 37.7 pounds since Jan. 16. That 40 pound goal is SO close, I can’t wait to hit it.

I was slightly disappointed to see I didn’t lose much at all since Monday, because I was perfect with what I ate and I went to the gym for at least 45 minutes five times this week. But I hit so many other goals this week, I have no reason to complain.

Headed out to reward myself for my progress. 🙂

Have a wonderful weekend.

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Another goal met… time to shop

Yesterday I was thrilled when a coworker finally noticed my weight loss. This morning I checked another goal off the list.

Remember those pants my grandma bought me a couple months ago that were super tight in the thighs and wouldn’t come close to zipping without at least a minor miracle?

My first set of 'goal pants.'
My first set of ‘goal pants.’

Today I wore them to work. 🙂

I get really discouraged when I step on the scale after a good week in the gym and not cheating on my diet only to see no progress. I have been told that when I am not losing pounds, I am losing inches — So I tried to measure myself. (I’m pretty sure that is impossible to do on your own accurately).

I needed another way to track my progress, so at least once a week I tried those pants from my grandma (I called them my goal pants) to see if there was any progress. It was encouraging to see that, even though I wasn’t losing pounds, I was losing inches.

Tomorrow, I am headed up to Columbia to get a new pair of ‘goal pants’ to keep myself going.

I’m also going to a specialty running store to have my gait analyzed and get some new running shoes.

While I was on the treadmill today, I was thinking that the whole ‘running thing’ might be growing on me. I can’t wait to be able to do it without getting shin splints.

Also, after about a month, I think I am ready to move on to week two of the couch to 5 K program. After taking a week off from running to baby my knee, I did the program again tonight and went my farthest distance in 30 minutes yet — 1.89 miles.

Weigh in is tomorrow. I weighed myself today and had only lost .3 pounds since last time I weighed myself after St. Pat’s. It doesn’t look like I am going to get to 40 pounds lost this week, which is a little disappointing, but I’ll get there eventually.

I can't believe I am saying this, but I think I love these shoes. Maybe they will prescribe them for me!
I can’t believe I am saying this, but I think I love these shoes. Maybe they will prescribe them for me!