So, clearly I have not been blogging, which means I have not been eating right or working out. I have made excuse after excuse. After losing 70 pounds last year, I know I am perfectly capable of losing the weight, but I let life get in the way and put 15 of it back on.
Motivation to get back on the horse and lose more has just been dropped into my lap. My little sister is getting married! Now I need to look fabulous in my bridesmaid’s dress!
Now I just need to get through the first 10 or so days. Those are always the hardest days for me, getting started again. Last time I started out seriously wondering if I could do it. Now I know I can, I just need to keep at it.
I ate like a rabbit today (lots of salad and fruit). But between my 14 hour work day and and -20 wind chill outside during my break, I didn’t have a chance to work out. My rabbit food is packed for tomorrow and my sneakers are ready so I can take a walk on my lunch break.
My goal is to lose 50 pounds by the wedding, which is October 18. IDEALLY I would like to go lose 65 pounds by then, the 15 pounds I have put on in the last 6 months, plus an additional 50.
The last month has been such a crazy whirlwind, working out and eating right has pretty much been the last thing on my mind. The last week or so has been especially bad because I was on vacation in New York to watch one of my best friends get married.
With all the excitement behind me, I stepped on the scales this morning terrified to see what the lack of exercise and terrible eating choices (not to mention all the empty calories in countless Miller Lite’s and more shots than I can count) had done to my progress so far. Thankfully, I only gained about 1.5 pounds — I deserved to gain about five times that, trust me.
Back to the grind tomorrow, I have a long walk with lots of hills scheduled in addition to some strength training.
On the way out to New York, I stopped at my college alma mater to get a workout in. I met with the women’s soccer coach (who was also one of my mentors during my time at the college) she taught me lots of new exercises and squats that will help me concentrate on strengthening my core. If they are as effective as they are painful, I’ll be in phenomenal shape in no time! Thanks coach!
I had a great time hanging out with my friends in New York. This is the first time any of them had seen me since I was 55 pounds heavier. A lot more people than I expected noticed my weight loss, while there were a few who knew there was something different about me, but thought I had changed my hair. It was great to have so many people notice, not to mention very encouraging. I hope to lose at least another 30 pounds by the time I go back out there at the end of August.
I met up with a friend out there who has been on her own weight loss journey, she has lost 40 pounds since the beginning of the year and looks great. She gave me three garbage bags full of clothes that were too big for her, but fit me perfectly. That will definitely help get me through until I can go shopping again. Seeing as I am down 6-8 sizes since the beginning of the year, I am starting to run low on clothes that fit me well… and it feels great.
Now that life has slowed down a bit, I promise to be better about posting!
P.S. I want to extend a HUGE congratulations to my friend Jen who has been kicking cancer’s ass all year.
She finished her final chemotherapy treatment today after being diagnosed with breast cancer in January. She is such a strong woman, not to mention an inspiration and a life saver. By being brave enough to tell her story, she helped at least one woman catch her own breast cancer very early.
The countdown has begun. Today was my last day at work and the movers come in the middle of next week to move me from Missouri back home to Massachusetts. Yay!
I haven’t been good this week at all. I haven’t been really bad, but I haven’t made it to the gym — at all. Hopefully I am burning enough calories moving boxes and packing that my body at least thinks it is lifting weights!
My meal choices have been lass than great as well. I am trying not go to the grocery store again before I leave, instead I am trying to eat the food I already have in the house. The only problem is that most of the food not really on my diet. In addition to that, my lovely coworkers organized a delicious potluck lunch for my going away party. Being the guest of honor, I didn’t think it was right to not eat, even though I don’t think any of the dishes were on my diet.
I felt SO sick after this plate of food. No seconds for me, thankyouverymuch. Part of the reason I think this try at losing weigh is because it isn’t super strict. If I want to cheat and eat something that it high in calories, I do — I just remember for the rest of the day I need to either work it off or cut waaay back on the rest of my meals. I had an apple for dinner last night to make up for it, and it was plenty.
Today, my official last say, my diet sabotoging well meaning co workers brought in a goodbye cake.
I used to LOVE this kind of cake, with the buttercream frosting, but it was so sweet, I couldn’t eat my whole piece.
I am about to go through my closet one last time, getting rid of any clothes that don’t fit or that I don’t want any more so I don’t have to move them again. These jeans are on the chopping block.
I was running a little bit early for an appointment today and found myself over by JCPenney. Even though I had no intention of buying anything, I went in to look around and try on some clothed (It is more fun now than it was at the beginning of the year — I can’t wait to see how fun it is when I am a hundred pounds down.
I am not used to being able to walk in a department store and find clothes that fit me. That wasn’t the case today though. I tried a couple cute outfits on, but walked out empty handed.
I have a couple hours of cleaning and packing to do tomorrow before heading in to St. Louis to pick my wonderful mom up from the airport. She is flying in to help me pack, then she is going to make the drive with me and my dog. It should be a fun trip, but first I have to do something about the disaster I call a house…
First off, good news, my ankle isn’t broken! Just a bad sprain. I have been wearing the brace for two days now and it is slowly starting to feel better. When I take the brace off I can feel my ankle start to wobble, so I am not going to take my chances.
More good news. It was about 85 degrees here today, to celebrate the (temporary) arrival of warm temps, I had to wear capris. Most of my clothes are too big for me now, but I have a couple items that are too small I put on from time to time to measure my progress. One of the items of clothing is a pair of khaki colored capri pants. I put them on today, and they fit! No Denim Dance required.
After I move home and find a job, a trip to the mall is definitely going to be in order. Thank god my mom is a great seamstress, I am hoping she will be able to take in some of the clothes that are too big.
I’ll try to remember to take a picture and post it by the end of the week!
Tomorrow it is back to the gym to spend some quality time with the recumbent bike until my ankle is better and can hit the treadmill again!
Want to look like you INSTANTLY gained 80 pounds? Put on a tutu.
My neighbor came over tonight so we could catch up on our Dance Moms (It’s a horrid program, but we can’t get enough). Between watching the show and trying to figure out the logistics of what it would take to set up a dance competition in our cul-de-sac (so we could be the judges) we also constructed a tutu for me to wear in the upcoming Color Run in St. Louis.
The run is two weeks away. When I first started my new lifestyle, I wanted to be able to run the whole 5K by now. Not gonna happen.
Then I wanted to run at least a mile (without stopping). Not gonna happen.
While I am getting more fit, I am still not where I would like to be. I am going to run what I can and walk the rest. My neighbor did the Color Run in a different city a couple weeks ago and she said there were so many people walking, it was hard for her to find space to run (she’s a track coach and avid runner, if she couldn’t run it, I didn’t have a chance).
I am just going to have fun with this one and finish it.
Anywho, we got the tutu for the most part done (I still need to add the velcro) and I put it on. Instantly — 80 pounds on my hips. I’m not sure I am going to wear it. I probably will, just to be goofy, but man, it is NOT flattering. (Five yards of fabric around your hips will do that). Once I get it finished, I will take a picture and post it on here and you guys can let me know what you think.
I took a ‘me day’ Saturday and went to Columbia to get my gait analyzed and buy a new pair of running shoes. After they had me answer a bunch of questions and recorded me running and walking on a treadmill, they narrowed what kind of sneakers down to about a half dozen. I went with these hot pink New Balances. Once I start walking at night when it gets warmer, you’ll be able to see me coming!
Then I went walking around the mall and got a new pair of ‘goal pants.’ It is going to be a while before I can fit into them, but they should help keep me motivated. It was great to go into the stores and find I am down two sizes! Trying on clothes was a lot more fun. I also got myself a pair of black workout pants with hot pink stripes up the sides to match the shoes.
On the way home I saw a historical marker just outside Jefferson City, so I drove out to take a look to see what it was. It turns out it was Clark’s Hill — a section of the Lewis and Clark Trail along the Missouri River. It was only a mile hike, 5. miles out and .5 back, so I decided to go ahead and walk it.
It was a pretty short hike, but very hilly and super slippery in places because of the recent rain and snow.There was one particular steep part that I didn’t really notice until after I was at the bottom of the hill. As soon as I got to the bottom, I turned around and realized that, in a few minutes, I was going to have to turn around and walk back up the damn thing.
I was glad I got out and walked it, even though I got some blisters thanks to the new shoes. It is just one more thing I am doing differently in my life. I don’t think it would have even dawned on the old me to hike the trail, I would have just kept on driving by.
So far in 2013, I have lost nearly 40 pounds. I’m proud of what I have done so far, but I have such a long way to go it is hard to really appreciate how far I have come in a relatively short period of time.
I am slowly noticing small changes in my body, but I am not to the point yet where people are noticing (or saying anything) about my weight loss.
Honestly, that’s OK with me. I would MUCH rather someone ask me if I have lost weight because they genuinely can see a difference, than just ask me because they know I have been trying.
To keep myself going, I just keep asking myself these questions:
Do I feel Better?Yes.
Do my clothes fit better?
Am I more fit?
Do I look better? A little bit.
Right now, those “yeses” are enough to keep me going.
I got a new perspective on how much weight I have lost today during a trip to Walmart.
My dog was out of food, so off to the pet foot aisle I went.
I awkwardly picked up a big bag of food and put it in the cart. Man it was heavy — 31.1 pounds to be exact.
I’ve lost more than that so far this year!
It helped put things into perspective for me. Yes, I have a long way to go, but I have come pretty far.
Next time I start feeling down on myself, I am going to Walmart and move some dog food around.